I am an idiot

And I apologize to anyone who was expecting new episodes.  Mostly I apologize to my husband, who spent an awful lot of time setting this up and trying to teach me how to do it.

But I can't.  I can talk about anything except the films.  When I try to talk about the films, I seize up.  It's the worse case of stage fright I've ever had.  I feel like an idiot.

But I've spent two weeks trying to just record anything to get it down, and there's nothing about the films. 

So there's really no point carrying on.

I thank everyone who sent me nice emails and comments.  And I'm sorry I'm such an idiot.

Comments

[Aarlene]

I have to disagree. I don't think you're an idiot. Episode 1 was such a delight. If it's never followed by an episode 2 it will STILL be a delight. Maybe you will never do another one or maybe you will someday. You did introduce me to a wonderful movie I now plan to see.
I say forget about it for now and try to enjoy the Tour. Maybe those shenanigans bummed you out and are influencing everything with a gray pall?

[The Other]

Hi Aarlene,

Katherine's like many of the "auteurs" she admires, she has angst coming out the... well, you get the picture. As well, she's a bit of a perfectionist (being a bit of one myself, I recognize the symptoms) and gets very frustrated when she stumbles or digresses or Forgets Some Person's Name That She Really Does Know.

However, I can certainly vouch for her being able to talk intelligently about movies, about how they make her feel, what they evoke and so on -- she may not be in Roger Ebert's league, but I'd bet it would be a great conversation to listen in on if they met at a cocktail party!

So, although it will perhaps take a tad longer than originally anticipated to get the second episode recorded and posted -- hey, what movie production ever comes in exactly on-time? -- but I will push, prod, cajole and otherwise play my role as Producer (as well as Sound Engineer, Gaffer, Chief-Cook-And-Bottle-Washer... OK, maybe just Bottle-Washer, since Herself is the acknowledged Chief Cook around here) to ensure Episode 2 sees the light of day.

Time, perhaps, for me to tell her to "Just Shut Up and Talk!" ;)

Yr fthfl srvnt,

T.O.

PS to Graeme: your email was received -- thanks. Herself is not feeling well & hasn't been reading email for a few days; when she does start again I'm sure she'll send a reply.